This is Shelly Brown, I adopted Robbie about 8 months ago from BRLA. He was a senior and we permanently fostered him. Anyways, it is with an extremely heavy heart that I let you and everyone that cared for him know that my sweet boy is in Heaven now. I am soooo extremely thankful that I got to spend the past months with him before he passed away...what an increble gift he was to me! I had to let alot of my friends and family know and since it is still too difficult to talk about, I posted a blog about him so that I didn't have to keep explaining the situation. So that you can get all of the information, here is my blog post:
I just need to write...I need to cry and vent and feel sorry for myself. I haven't been able to stop crying yesterday and today..I have tears running down my face as I'm typing this...I should know how to deal with this...I am a vet tech and have to go through this with clients daily but for some reason, this seems unbearable to me. My sweetest, most gentle loveable dog in the world is gone now...he had lymphoma and it was terminal. His lymph nodes grew to the size of tennis balls, his energy level became very decreased, he couldn't yawn because his cancer had spread to his jaws and he just seemed to be giving up the past few days. I prepared myself for yesterday and yet I'm having a hard time coming to grips with it. Besides my husband, my dogs are my life...they have been with me through some of my most difficult times and I can't explain the love I have for them (although you dog poeple know what I'm talking about). Especially Robbie...mabye God sent me this baby when He knew I would need him/her the most...it feels like I've lost one of my babies.
Yesterday at 5 pm , Justin and I decided that the time was "right". I couldn't stand to see him suffer and be uncomfortable for another minute. We had had a great day yesterday. We went on a walk in the morning, which is one of his favorite things to do and then for lunch, I went and got him some french fries. Throughout the day, I gave him lots of cookies and snacks...he LOVES food and he thought he had won the lottery! I spent the majority of the day lying on the couch cuddling him. He absolutely loved the attention I was showering him with. Late in the afternoon, I walked him again and let him pee on every single tree and fire hydrant possible...he thought he was the man! When Justin got home that night, we all went for a ride (another favorite of his) and went to McDonalds. I ordered him a Cheeseburger and fries and fed it all to him while driving to my work.
The procedure went really well. He layed on this big comfy blanket while I fed him his most favorite food in the world: Whipped Cream. Meanwhile, he recieved his injection of Valium and started to feel really good. Robbie and I were surrounded by my best friends at work...all of whom were talking and petting him and telling him what a special boy he was. Sweet Robbie kept looking up at me and licking my face...I think he was trying to tell me he was at peace. I held onto him and he peacefully passed away...
I miss him soooo much...I wish I could have him give me one of his big ole' Boxer kisses or hear the jingle of his collar or see his Boxer nub wiggle one last time...However, one day, when the time is right, I will see him again...it will just be in Heaven this time....
RIP my sweet boy...I will always love you!
Anyways, thank you from the bottom of my heart for allowing me to share my love with him. I will never ever forget him!
Shelly
